track 4 & 6 in magentayellowcyan.
love to hatred
these two songs are really personnal to me, i already talked about them a while ago on 4U Journal's previous entries, i don't mind talking about it again here to be honest.
i won't go into as much detail as i did before but i started talking with someone and took a liking to them. i knew they wouldn't reciprocate anyway so i didn't try anything, i was going to keep it to myself and eventually forget about it.
i wrote and produced 4U with the help of my friends, at the time i had no intention of releasing it as a single.
while it primarily is a love song, it's more one sided and self aware.
anyway, that same person i liked eventually ended up doing something to me that completely broke me, i'm still feeling the consequences today. to be honest i'm still lost on what to feel.
poison had already been planned but going through that experience really lit up the path in production i wanted to take in making it.
i'm still not sure if i truly wanna keep hating that person though. what they did to me is absolutely fucked up so logically i should still hate them
but there's still that part of me trying to hang on to some hope.
i'm releasing this as a statement in a way, i guess. the chances they'll see this are low to zero anyway so that's why i'm doing it, it's not for you anymore.
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